Meet you in the parallel universe...

I lay low,
bent like a bow.
I shivered under the thick blanket cover,
the chill spreading through my body;
My heart burnt
I threw a mouthful,
a liquid mass,
how much I wish i could say it was ketchup,
but in my case it was to be blood.
In testing times all i have is sarcasm to make my pain seem as normal.
But my life has been too reckless,
 to even bother to regret it
as all my life ,
i had a companion that i wish never had.
My company was all that was prohibited,
from cigarettes to drinks to joints.

Engulfed in rings of smoke and drenched with gallons of consumable poison,
All my moments of life from sadness to
those small bits of happiness was passed with a joint and a glass in each hand.

With a rough childhood,
And split up parents.
I had none to answer,
A conscience that was locked up
and a heart full of bitterness.
all i ever cared about was the cheap thrills.
and such passed my life.

With a education that just was a formality,
all i ever cared about was being free.
i craved for love
yet hesitating to new people.
To those handful that call me 'friend',
I am sorry but this is where it all ends.
This is where i walk alone.
into a deep slumber.
may be one day we meet again,
but today i pass off
with a few memories and a few people to thank for this living.

I say farewell,
and if i get another go at this thing called "life",
May be i live it in a better way..